I don't understand. Why do I care so much? I guess its just part of who I am. I don't like changes and I'm afraid that there is no holding back a change that is soon approaching. I try to ignore it but the more I do so, the more it keeps creeping back into my mind.
I don't want to lose a friend you see. A friend that I feel so comfy around with. A friend that I can be myself with. Despite all my flaws, all my silly-ness that might even be embarrassing...you stuck by my side. You, honest in your opinions. Pointing out to me my bad habits. Things that I should work on. Without that...how would I improve? Not many are that blunt. XD
I wonder...do you know how much you have taught me, friend? I'm no longer the same naive girl that went into college, without any expectations. You taught me...not to give your heart up so easily. To be patient and not rash in making a decision. To think things through carefully. To not depend solely on what your heart says. I would be lying if I said those weren't dark times for me. I know its somewhat a taboo between us but I have to tell you...how much I appreciate it. Both the good and the bad. And you know whats the best part?
Our friendship survived it. It was strong enough. I'm still surprised sometimes. =)
A little more than a year....since I first had the privilege to be your friend. Too short a time in my opinion. Yet these moments were filled with much joy. I'm happy.
Letting all these thoughts out was what I needed all along. Recalling all that happened...it gives me hope for the years to come when I have my friend back here. =) Now I can see you off with a smile on my face. Knowing the joy, the fun, the experiences that are awaiting for you. I can even see you now...with all the successes you are going to achieve! I'm proud of you...for who you are now and for who I know...you will soon be.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding,
In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Bon voyage, dear friend.
From: Me
