Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me.
-John 14:1-
I haven't felt like this in ages. So at peace. So relieved. So touched.
And it all began at CF (Christian Fellowship) today.
There was this one song that seriously struck a chord in my heart (as corny as it sounds). The weird thing is...it really came all of a sudden. I've sang the same song so many times at church and yet it was only today that something was different. I was just so touched by it...I almost cried. Even now I feel all teary-eyed.
Lord, I Offer My Life To You.
All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, and all of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to you
(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life
You know...all that we've gone through, the pain, regrets, joy and achievements....our experiences and memories make us who we are.
Each of us different.
Ever wondered why God lets us go through though times, hardships? Ever thought it would be so that we can use what we've gone through to help others? God can use anything...anything...small or big...for His plans.
What really hit me was how much I've neglected Him. Yes...I go to church. Sing praise and worship songs...even serve. But so what? I was just going through the motions of it all.
What's your goal in life? Study hard, get a good job, find that special someone and settle down...right? Where does God come into the picture then? We can glorify Him in all those areas but really (and I mean really) just think back...and see...is God really the centre of it all?
He wasn't in mine. I made Him a bystander. Living my life my own way. I'm sorry....Thank You for reminding me.
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I've been really troubled lately. About so many things...mainly about the future though.
Am I in the right course?
Am I in the right program? University?
If yes...then why do I feel so discontented? Unhappy?
The financial burden of it all has been really worrying me too. My parents say its ok. But I just can't help feeling as if I'm making their life harder by choosing this program. This course.
I've been weighed down by this for so long. Just shoving it at the back of my mind. Complaining too. Today, I had enough of it. I found out information to change my program....to a cheaper one. But still...something was nagging me. Something still wasn't right.
I came home...and prayed. The first verse I read. John 14:1.
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me.
I guess...no. I know. That no matter what happens. What decision I make....God will help me through. Trust in Him, trust in Jesus.
It shouldn't be about what or where I study at.
It shouldn't be about,
"oh no...when am I gonna find that special someone? Am I gonna spend my life with 8 cats for company?!"
Hehehe!
Nope!
It should be living each day...walking beside God. Doing things that are pleasing to Him. Obeying Him and being a blessing onto others.
One day at a time.
Thank You, dear dear Heavenly Father.
I'm not saying that I'll be successful in changing. But I'll try. My very BEST. No more worries bout the future.
Just trust..
=)
